Kadashi's Fantasy lounge...

well guys as the topic said.. "Lounge" so sit back and relax....
am hoping noone will flame each other here in this thread i just wanna have a clean and nice conversation with each other ok?? so play nice.... everyone is welcome to post any sweet, sad, etc. etc. story if you feel like it.... well as for me, i started this thread so i'll start... hope you enjoy visiting this thread... i'll make this updated as much as possible... thanks guys!! ^_^

my heArt's bleedin! i cant breathe!!
she pAssed by..
and she just smiLed..
n0t at me..
but at him..
shit! that hurts!!
i wAnna die..
after aLL we've been through..
i wAs just an0ther guy..
just an0ther 0ne 0f her d0LLs..
she never cAred..
she never even dared to cAre..
even f0r a bit..
she let me faLL..
she let me cry..
she let me bLeed..
and let me die..
and n0w i'm bruised
im numb and tired..
the sweetest kisz that says g0odbye!!

fuck it aLL!
and she thinks i can still feel pain n0w?!
my br0ken heArt can't bLeed, since it aLready st0pped breAthin..
the m0ment she pAssed by.
and n0w, i just cry..
n0t because im hurt.
but because i wanna cry myselF t0 sLeep..
and never wAke up t0 this endLess misery..
i l0ve her, go0dbye..

just shArds 0f tAinted mem0ries left..
n0thin eLse to grieve at..
but that swEet pAinfuL smiLe....

....i've died a th0usand deaths,
d0 y0u think i could still feel pain n0w?
it d0esn't hurt..
in fact, i can't feel anything..
s0 damn numb..
i miss the feeling 0f unending pain..
the taste of sweet misery..
the vict0ry 0f bitter ag0ny..
a t0ast t0 all the br0ken and defeated..

im bLeedin but im 0k..

i live in a w0rld where angels and dem0ns kneel bef0re me..
where life and death dance unexpectedly at my hands..
but it doesn't feel right at all..
there's something missing..
and i guess it's y0u..

damn, life suck!....

the great loss

it was the day she
would go away and leave me
in chaos..
in sadness...
in great loss...
in tears...

she would not see me again
no matter what.
death or sickness
nor sacrifice of
my blood
my own life.

she torn my heart
with endless pain.
my life she made it more than death.
much worse, to see
her eyes on fire
her determination
it scorch her very heart.

she was on bed
very sthraight.
she was beutiful but pale.
tubes coming in and out her mouth.
the torture
she bare it.

it dawned me on
how much i love her
an adore her.
then she will leave me.
oh such a great loss.
oh how foolish of me.
to love her.

she was second away
from her flight
and then i told her
"i love you"
i saw thus tears falling
in her two burning eyes.
falling in rhythm with mine.

and it makes my world blank.
im blind on that time.
i hold her hand,
to stop her
but still she go....
to eternity.

it was my darkest hour
to see her go.
with faceless DEATH
holding her hand,
her pale cold hand.

but still i could not
forget thus time.
she died with my love
buried in her heart.
so deep it was
buried that death cant get a glimpse

i love you love and wherever you are,
im still her
faithfull of our love
till death get me,
i will be like your eyes
full of determination.
i will bare the torture
like you have done.
the pain and sadness,
it will go
when i fall to endless sleep.
just wait for me..... in hell.

All I can do is run some more
When she runs away from me
When all I see is her trace from behind
I follow her though its too dark to see
All I can do is call her back
And beg her to stop
And shout
But tears are all that happen
All I can do is run some more, and run
When all I can feel is the pain in my legs
When my body says stop, but my mind says go...
All I can do is push my steps longer
To breach the gap
But the run looks like Forever
And Forever is unforgiving to the tiresome...
And everytime I catch my breath to reach some air
I lose some steps and she gains some
Eventhough she seems so far, I run
Sweating tired I lose my mind and forget,
And I lose my steps and stumble and fall
And bleed just to remember that Im still running..
And all that keeps me alive is the heart that pumps my blood,
that tells me to go
Even when my body, mind and soul says stop...

All I can do is run for her
and run.....
and run....
...

nabasa ko to....

one of the books of henry longfelow.....

w0w....

ghaling ah....

hehehehe......

peace

j.c.
_____________________

i Love You boo.......... Muah....

ClaiRex

new post do ko na pancin to ah... cno nmn kaya kinakareer ni kadesh??? hehehe

as far as i know.......

every minute.....

lima lima karir niyan.......

hmnnnn....

dba kadesh........??

hehehehehehe

love u all Boy_Hiwa 2 ^_____^

If you come close enough for me to fall into the depths,
I'll become a shadow, wandering the endless darkness.

Entrancingly drifting in the air, my shimmering haze,
I only remembered the days that weren't granted to us.
You're not here.
I know that. I know that.

Rising, rising, the sun
Purifies this place.
The seal carved in blue
Is stolen away by the warm, warm wind.

If these words ever reach you,
I'll take my living body and throw it away.

A present [as in "now" not "gift"] that has erased my vivid wounds -
Your warmth that steals everything -
I longed for them, I searched for them
Even though they're illusions.

Vanishing, vanishing, your warmth
Follows me to this place.
Your arms that could wipe away even punishment -
I want to sleep embracing them.

Rising, rising, the sun
Purifies this place.
Your arms that could wipe away even punishment -
I want to sleep embracing them.

Vanishing, vanishing, your warmth
Follows me to this place.
The seal carved in blue
Is stolen away by the warm, warm wind.

The splinters of memories are rotting away.
The piercings that fill me aren't enough.
I'm forgetting - it's blurring -
Your voice disappears in the noise.

They're rotting, they're shedding -
The piercings that fill me aren't enough.
Without leaving a trace - I'm forgetting -
Your voice is becoming noise.

All the night
I sit alone in bed
The stars shining above
And my heart sinking below
All I want is be in your arms
And I thought you should know

The world is a torrid place
The fate that can be so cruel
To keep us apart
But I want to break the rule
The rule that separates us
That binds us from one another
That keeps me from my love so true

I wish upon the first star
And regret the day
When you stole my heart away
But the theft you have caused
Pains me and thrills me
In the same instance
Your love keeps me going

I know your lips upon mine
Would be ecstasy
And I would wait for the day
When darkness turns to light
And the rain disappears
When I see your smiling face
And I know in my heart
Our souls would be made as one

But life is cruel
And fate so bland
That we will never
Meet together to stand
But I hope beyond hope
In my eyes so true
That we can be together
Because I have fallen in love
With you......

Too much had happened already. Now, I'm on the lowest ditch of my life. Manifesting problems of my own, I come to think of only one solution. To end it all. To end the suffering, worrying, and responsibilities that has shackled me on this earth. I feel like a prisoner, unable to escape a deadly prison that is slowly torturing me to death. Living a life full of deceit and facade. The masks I wore just to hide of what I feel inside. These masks I wore, facing the mirror, little by little makes me feel better. Unfortunately, masks do fade in time and sooner or later they will discover who you really are. A weak and defenseless person who tried to help anyone out but unable to help himself.

Sacrifice. The only word that seems to fit my whole existence. It is not as great as the martyrs nor is it worthy of being praised. I am a person who built an image of wisdom and greatness. A beautiful mask that everyone seems to adore and love and sooner or later everyone became dependent on. I never complained on what I do, I never did shout back at them, telling them that all this is because of them. I never wanted to let them know that I was weak, since the mask is the only thing they see.

Sometimes I wish that sooner or later, I could find a person that I could truly share my problem with. A person that sees me of who I am and yet unable to turn back at me when I needed help. Sometimes I wish, I was more brave in facing troubles such as this and give myself advices which makes me feel better. Sometimes I wish that I could have someone to share my life with forever... Unfortunately, that person is gone. The one person I could truly be myself and supported me this whole time is gone and no longer breathing the air of life.

There has to be a reason why she was taken away from me, there has to be. But thinking that she was my life the pillar that keeps me alive, I slowly look up and started blaming Him everything that had happened. I know, she never would've liked that.

So now I sit here, thinking about her this very minute. Thinking about the betrayal that had happened to me and made my life worst that it really is. No matter what I do or say, nothing seems to change it.

I wanted everything to end, I wanted to dissapear, but I can't.

I'm still here.....

I want to be needed
but i hate people who give me the chance
I want to be known
But I always hide
I act as if Im happy
But I feel empty inside
I seek for love
But left it when found it
I said I love her
But I thought It wont last
Love is god's gift
But I believe it can be taken back
That's what masks are for:

Letting your mind rule over your heart.....

too emo... hahahaha...

hahaha.... not actually. i've been compiling those in diff. forums through out the net.... hope you guys like it.... next time i'll post some funny stuff.

"I chose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no rejection. I chose to love you in your loneliness, for in your loneliness no one owns you, but me."

kung may sagot lang sana ako sa bawat tandang pananong mo ay di ka na magtatampisaw sa pag-aalinlangan.

hindi ko man kayang ipaliwanag sa iyo ang lahat, gusto kong sabihing naiintindihan kita. sadya yatang dumadating ang mga sandaling humaharot ang buhay kaya't nahihilo tayo at nababalisa. hindi ka lang sanay o marahil hindi lang ako sanay na ikaw ang aligaga. madalas kasi ay sa akin nagpapasasa ang pangamba. pakiusap kong ikaw na ay pumanatag dahil hiritan mo man ako ng ilang pasikot-sikot, wala kang mapipiga -- uulit-ulitin ko lang ang pasubali kong mahal kita.

iyon din naman ang himutok ko sa mundo; kung bakit at paanong nabubuo ang ibang tandang pananong nang walang ipinapanganak na sagot.

nawari mo na bang kahit kailan hindi ko nilisan ang langit mo? hindi ba't sabay nating binibilog ang buwan nang masakyan nating mahusay ang alimpuyo ng mga alon? ano pa ba ang ibig mong matanto gayong parehas lang na paminsang sinisira ng pangungulila ang ating mga ulo; pantay lang ang mga utak natin na inaaagiw at nilulumot. kaya sumasamo akong huwag ka magpapagupo. mabangis man ang espasyong masalimuot at kahit pa pinapraning din ng panahon.

para sa iyo, nagtatapangtapangan akong hinahamon itong buong uniberso.

paanong kahit hindi kita marinig ay ibinubulong ka ng hangin;
paanong kahit hindi kita masilip ay ipinipinta ka ng mga bituin;
paanong milya-milya ang pagitan natin ngunit hawak mo ang aking mga ngiti;
paanong distansya ang sa gitna'y sumisiksik subalit heto ka, tumatakbo sa aking isip?
paanong isinisigaw ng daigdig ang layo mo samantalang sa pakiwari ko,
nandito ka lang, nasa loob ng puso ko?

i miss you in the morning when all the world is new.
i know the day can bring no joy because it brings not you.
i miss the well loved voice of you your tender smile for me , the joy of you the charm of your unfailing sympathy.
i miss you in the evening when day light fades away i miss the hugs and kisses that use to greet me everyday

i try to think i see you there yet well the fire light gleams weary at last i sleep and still i miss you in my dreams.

another chapter in my life closes...who knows...i can only dream...maybe, just maybe...i'll let the course of fate decide...a simple wish...i'll watch you on the sidelines...rooting for you...maybe i'll just see you in my dreams...to sleep eternally...'coz in my dreams there's only you and me...

stop spamming this section with ur pathetic words! such a waste of time, loser!

wow astig!!! sino ka para pag sabihan ako!!! alam mo ba kung anong section to ha!!!!!!!!! bobo ka pala eh!!!!! siguro di ka marunong gumawa ng poems? bobo mag basa ka bago ka mag sabi ng spamming this section!!!!! heller!!!!!

GM BAKET KAME WALA 60HITS POTANG INA NAMAN OH!!! TARANTADO KAPA PLA DENS EH KONG HINDE KA RIN (badwords) EH NO?!!!! QUIT NA AKO SA FANTASY BAND MO NA AKO PA MURA PA NGA TARANTADO!!!!!